Nothing means more to me than spending time each morning with God, but have you ever felt God stirring the childlike part of you to do something a little silly?

My heart aches. My stomach churns. My mind twists and turns when I worry about those I love and grow anxious about an uncertain future. I've wasted hours, maybe days, in the past trying to plan every moment and every outcome in an effort to avoid failure, frustration and pain. And what did I get besides incredibly weary?

"Jesus consistently moves toward the people who know they are not enough."

I read the words again and again after a long dry season of asking God just where He is. My faith reassures me He is with me, but I can't feel Him, and I so need to feel Him when people around me are uber-productive, hyper-busy and seemingly on their way to the top while I'm unfocused and feeling like a failure. Just Who defines the top, and why are so many of us striving to get there? Where exactly is there?